Post by mayacorvina on Jun 19, 2008 20:56:58 GMT -5
Archetype:
Black Jaguar
Awakening:
Ok, this is the short, SHORT version.
I went to a camp for cancer survivors & their siblings from ages 7-18. When I was 16 I met a girl who would later introduce me to not only paganism but to shapeshifting. I would learn later that she was an extreme type of therian. Just being around her awakened my feline tendancies. I started to realize things about myself.... I felt strange around the full moon. my night vision was getting sharper. I felt the inexplicable urge to run. I'd get chills before something bad would happen... it's difficult to explain how I felt.. I just knew something was different about me.
I REALLY knew something was different about me during a fight with my dad. It was the first real shift I had, and it scared the shit out of me. We ended up yelling at one another, and I just got so angry that I wanted to hit him. But I knew... i just knew that if I did, I'd break his neck or jaw. So I locked myself in my room... and I just went feral. I turned up my music really loud so my family wouldn't hear me growling and sobbing at the same time... I'm sure I was making some horrendous noises. I couldn't understand it. I blacked out, and all I remember is curling up between my bed and my wall on the floor with a bunch of pillows and blankets.... denned up like a kit.
I started to get really tempermental and moody, and was that way for the next year. I could never understand why I was so violent and angry. I started to get really depressed, not understanding what was happening to me. I think at a certain point I brushed it off to teenage angst. *shrugs*
I started having dreams a year later that explained everything. I would be sitting at a crystal-clear pool in a glade in a beautiful forest. For the first month I would see a shadow across the pond, and deep eyes. I wasn't scared, but the creature would never come out. I would just talk to it. Tell it everything that had been going on in my mind for the past year. After a month of trying to coax it out, I was rewarded with her splashing me as she jumped out of the trees. Three nights later, as I waited in the glade, a black jaguar strode out, around the pond, and sat in front of me. All she said was, "I am Maya, and I am you." From that second on I knew she was part of my soul.
Effects:
Effects for me include the need to howl (this one I really don't get), scream, growl, purr, meow, hiss and make other assorted cat noises. I crave rare meat and sushi alot. I've become more graceful, better at jumping, climbing and the like. I rub up against EVERYTHING. I have to have physical contact, or I get really sad and lonely. My sex drive has gone through the roof. lol. I lounge around like it's no one's business. Basically, take a cat, and shove it into a woman's skin. That's me. =)
Black Jaguar
Awakening:
Ok, this is the short, SHORT version.
I went to a camp for cancer survivors & their siblings from ages 7-18. When I was 16 I met a girl who would later introduce me to not only paganism but to shapeshifting. I would learn later that she was an extreme type of therian. Just being around her awakened my feline tendancies. I started to realize things about myself.... I felt strange around the full moon. my night vision was getting sharper. I felt the inexplicable urge to run. I'd get chills before something bad would happen... it's difficult to explain how I felt.. I just knew something was different about me.
I REALLY knew something was different about me during a fight with my dad. It was the first real shift I had, and it scared the shit out of me. We ended up yelling at one another, and I just got so angry that I wanted to hit him. But I knew... i just knew that if I did, I'd break his neck or jaw. So I locked myself in my room... and I just went feral. I turned up my music really loud so my family wouldn't hear me growling and sobbing at the same time... I'm sure I was making some horrendous noises. I couldn't understand it. I blacked out, and all I remember is curling up between my bed and my wall on the floor with a bunch of pillows and blankets.... denned up like a kit.
I started to get really tempermental and moody, and was that way for the next year. I could never understand why I was so violent and angry. I started to get really depressed, not understanding what was happening to me. I think at a certain point I brushed it off to teenage angst. *shrugs*
I started having dreams a year later that explained everything. I would be sitting at a crystal-clear pool in a glade in a beautiful forest. For the first month I would see a shadow across the pond, and deep eyes. I wasn't scared, but the creature would never come out. I would just talk to it. Tell it everything that had been going on in my mind for the past year. After a month of trying to coax it out, I was rewarded with her splashing me as she jumped out of the trees. Three nights later, as I waited in the glade, a black jaguar strode out, around the pond, and sat in front of me. All she said was, "I am Maya, and I am you." From that second on I knew she was part of my soul.
Effects:
Effects for me include the need to howl (this one I really don't get), scream, growl, purr, meow, hiss and make other assorted cat noises. I crave rare meat and sushi alot. I've become more graceful, better at jumping, climbing and the like. I rub up against EVERYTHING. I have to have physical contact, or I get really sad and lonely. My sex drive has gone through the roof. lol. I lounge around like it's no one's business. Basically, take a cat, and shove it into a woman's skin. That's me. =)