Post by Thylae on Nov 6, 2007 18:13:29 GMT -5
Okay, so I have been attempting to figure myself out as alot of you know. I have been focussing on my inner self, which has always felt canine, but almost a "lighter" feeling to it...hard to explain in coherent speech unfortunately.
Anywho, I stumbled across fox, or rather, slowly it dawned upon me that my energy/myself felt fox. I have felt this for a period of months now (not sure exactly how long though...very bad with time), but I've felt it for a while now, especially in meditations. However, also in meditations, I saw lion, but what I see usually isn't as accurate as what I feel. Lion has been showing up for maybe two years now almost, but it doesn't feel right. I just couldn't see myself as a lion, although I admit it could easily be a spirit guide.
As for fox, well, it just works. It's like I feel that I may be able to stick with it. I am also in the furry community (but mind you, I am not into the sexual aspects of it, which sadly take up a great deal of the comm), and when choosing a fursona, nothing felt quite comfortable...except for some sort of fox. I actually tried to avoid this. I didn't WANT to be a fox..too many furrs are/were, but it kept "pushing" and "following me" in a symbolic sense until I accepted it. The connection just wouldn't let me alone. Bearing that in mind, as well as the fact that I had "fox energy" in meditations, and when I focussed on certain possibilities when I was calmed enough (almost in a sort of transe), plus I my behaviors do reflect fox like behaviors. (If you like, I'll go into this further at a later time.) Fox just works so far. As for what kind of fox, I am not sure, but I am looking into it. That may take some time.
-Sekkada
Anywho, I stumbled across fox, or rather, slowly it dawned upon me that my energy/myself felt fox. I have felt this for a period of months now (not sure exactly how long though...very bad with time), but I've felt it for a while now, especially in meditations. However, also in meditations, I saw lion, but what I see usually isn't as accurate as what I feel. Lion has been showing up for maybe two years now almost, but it doesn't feel right. I just couldn't see myself as a lion, although I admit it could easily be a spirit guide.
As for fox, well, it just works. It's like I feel that I may be able to stick with it. I am also in the furry community (but mind you, I am not into the sexual aspects of it, which sadly take up a great deal of the comm), and when choosing a fursona, nothing felt quite comfortable...except for some sort of fox. I actually tried to avoid this. I didn't WANT to be a fox..too many furrs are/were, but it kept "pushing" and "following me" in a symbolic sense until I accepted it. The connection just wouldn't let me alone. Bearing that in mind, as well as the fact that I had "fox energy" in meditations, and when I focussed on certain possibilities when I was calmed enough (almost in a sort of transe), plus I my behaviors do reflect fox like behaviors. (If you like, I'll go into this further at a later time.) Fox just works so far. As for what kind of fox, I am not sure, but I am looking into it. That may take some time.
-Sekkada