Post by whitewolf45 on Jun 9, 2008 10:25:27 GMT -5
To start off, being Therian is new to me. I'm struggling to learn things about myself that have just come to my attention. Things that I realized years ago, but failed to dig into.
My awakening happened about a week ago I went to my hometown in the country to visit some family members. I had been itching to go for walks in the forrest, to be surrounded by nature. And when I got to my parents house, I stood at the edge of the woods and just stared. I noticed things I had never noticed before. Then all of a sudden I broke into a run and tore through the forrest, everything was a blurry. Finally I stopped near a creek bed, I was crouching beside a hollowed out oak tree when a storm came up. The rain just poured from the sky, but I didn't move a muscle. The smells and sounds blew my mind, the smells especially because I felt that I was not alone. I looked to my right and there was a deer a few yards from me. I had the sudden desire to creep closer, to stalk him. I crept closer, barely making a sound. Then a loud clap of thunder sounded over head and he took off, and I followed. We raced through the woods, until we came to a road. I stopped trying to figure out why I was chasing this deer, as he continued across the road.
I have been researching Therians ever since, and I have been drawn to the forrest like never before. Living in the city doesn't help these urges. So I'm struggling, not only to come to terms with myself but to control myself as well.
I've been looking for a place such as this to actually be myself, because Im not sure how the outside world would feel about me.
I don't want to be judged because of who I am.
My awakening happened about a week ago I went to my hometown in the country to visit some family members. I had been itching to go for walks in the forrest, to be surrounded by nature. And when I got to my parents house, I stood at the edge of the woods and just stared. I noticed things I had never noticed before. Then all of a sudden I broke into a run and tore through the forrest, everything was a blurry. Finally I stopped near a creek bed, I was crouching beside a hollowed out oak tree when a storm came up. The rain just poured from the sky, but I didn't move a muscle. The smells and sounds blew my mind, the smells especially because I felt that I was not alone. I looked to my right and there was a deer a few yards from me. I had the sudden desire to creep closer, to stalk him. I crept closer, barely making a sound. Then a loud clap of thunder sounded over head and he took off, and I followed. We raced through the woods, until we came to a road. I stopped trying to figure out why I was chasing this deer, as he continued across the road.
I have been researching Therians ever since, and I have been drawn to the forrest like never before. Living in the city doesn't help these urges. So I'm struggling, not only to come to terms with myself but to control myself as well.
I've been looking for a place such as this to actually be myself, because Im not sure how the outside world would feel about me.
I don't want to be judged because of who I am.
