Maya here!

[mayacorvina]

Just wanted to introduce myself... My birth-name is Nancy, but my craft and chosen name is Maya Adrienne Midnight Corvina. I am a three-year-old jaguar therian. She and I are one... we switch personalities and meld into one another on a daily basis. it's hard to tell where I end, and she begins. But I wouldn't have it any other way.

For the last few years, I've really been keeping to myself, learning the ins and outs of the changes my mind and soul has gone through since my awakening. I was force-woken by my best friend, who is a lycan. So in the beginning she was really hard to live with... striking at people I care about and being very moody and violent. I closed myself off from people in general becuase I feared anyone getting too close and not understanding what I am... and I was also deathly afraid of getting inexplicably angry and physically hurting someone. My shifts are usually brought on by extreme emotions... anger, lust, frustration, depression, sadness and the like. I'm learning how to co-exist with her, and learning her mind and tendancies as well as I know mine. Needless to say, I don't know how I lived with out her!

I don't really have controllable mental shifts, and rarely dream-shift. For that reason, I've had a hard time finding my place in the Therian and Otherkin community. I've learned more on where I fall in relation to other therians in the past few months than I have in the past 3 years!

I'll definantly be on here alot... and if anyone wants to talk, feel free to message me, or email!!!

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Brightest Blessings!
Maya

[Nousagi]

Hrm.. Welcome.

I personally don't believe someone else can "awaken" you, as awakening is nothing more than becoming aware of yourself, `kin or not.

What do you mean your friend is a lycan?

It's unfortunate that you seem to be having such terrible emotions during shifts. That's really saddening.

[mayacorvina]

Well, I suppose reading back on that, and remembering... It was more being around her that awakened my shift. She is a wolf shapeshifter... but there's something more to it that doesn't really fit the typical wolf shapeshifters I meet... She's a character, to say the least. =/

It is unfortunate, but now that I've learned a little bit more about myself and have been able to cope with a few of the changes my mind went through, I have more calm shifts where I'm more aware... usually for the violent ones I'll black out. But that rarely happens anymore. These days, it's a cooperative relationship between us... she's always with me on a day to day basis, always a whisper in the back of my head, or a presence at my back. it's comforting. I'm sure some therians have had that feeling. She's like a best friend I don't know how I ever lived without!

I know I did myself an injustice by that post... I'm a little excited to find this community, and just started typing, letting my random musings pour out of my head onto the screen =)

[xdarkkitsunex]

Welcome to the Tree.

Those are some interesting shifts. Can't say I have extreme ones like that. I usually have control.

[whitewolf45]

Welcome

And I am the same when it comes to people understanding what I am. But I'm still learning about myself so we'll see.

[Thylae]

Interesting how you say "her" as if she is separate from you. Perhaps she is. Have you considered the possibility that jaguar is in fact a totem? Also, what do you mean by lycan? Do you mean physically shifting? No one can do that. Also, it sounds more like your friend is bipolar, if you ask me.

Anyways, welcome.


-Thylae

[vampcat]

Welcome and I think if noting esle some on can help triger awakeing for some one esle' depeanding on the ordeal that said it's nice to see some one new and i hope we can chat one day.

[mayacorvina]

No, she is not a totem.

I'd kindly ask you to watch how you speak of my friends. Yes, she has her problems, but those are her own.

I meant Lycan as an non-physically shifting werewolf. My pack uses the term Lycan loosely.

[Thylae]

I didn't mean to insult your friend. Heck, I have bipolar myself, that's why I mentioned it. It sounds like bipolar or a similar disorder. Also, many of us find it hard to grasp the idea of a pack. Generally, these are more like "cults" than communities. I'm not saying your's is for sure, but yeah.

Also, how do you know she is not a totem? Have you put any research into this?



-Thylae