Beginning again..

[talaunega]

Hello all. I just discovered this site while googling for a therianthropy forum. I haven't been active in my beliefs for a few years actually. When my best friend died abruptly, I guess i went into a reclusive phase where i just couldn't believe in anything. My spirit that i felt inside me for so long, i chose to ignore it. His death left me in skepticism and confusion for a long time. But even through out that, i couldn't shake the feelings inside me that were so strong all my life.

For a while i was in denial, i just couldn't believe in what i used to, shaking it off and trying to move on. But my love for nature remained always. Soon the feelings became so strong again, that i just couldn't ignore them anymore. I'm still in some type of weird transitional phase and it is truly difficult. I find myself in tears over it, not knowing what to do and how to maintain these feelings. I feel alone with this, and like no one would take me seriously.

I have tried other therian groups years ago, but many of them were elitist and shunned my own beliefs chalking it up to "making fun of the way" even though i wasn't. So i have been very hesitant about joining other therian groups. This is a sensitive subject to me and although i know judgment happens in life, i don't appreciate being ridiculed over something that means so much to me.

I just want a little help, i want guidance and support. I want to listen and learn and express how i feel. Its very hard to cope with, especially when i feel so alone. So i appreciate you letting me be apart of this forum, in hopes that maybe i can gain a few friendships or experiences here.

[Sherlawk Dragon]

Hello there, glad to hear you're getting you life back together. Perhaps you could tell us a bit more about yourself as a Therian?

[talaunega]

Thanks for the welcome sherlawk! Well, i ofcourse feel a strong connection with the wolf. A white wolf as i see myself. I don't know how to explain it fully but I'm sure alot of you can relate. There is a basic primal energy inside of me, yearning to run free. The longing of this sometimes is very painful, its like a powerful urge that i just cant express fully.

I also feel connections to other animals as well. But primarily the wolf is dominant. I have alot of dreams of shifting, as well as mental shifts happening here and there. Times when i just want to howl into the night. It's very powerful stuff

[Sherlawk Dragon]

Oh, you can go ahread and post outside of here by the way... XD

[talaunega]

ah ok! wasnt sure where else to post just yet but i guess i'll venture out thanks again for the warm welcome!

[RedFeather]

Yeah, I can't stand elitist therians. Those people who go around acting like they are gods and can judge you like that, really don't have a clue. No one has the right to tell you are and what you are not, so long as you are honest in your beliefs, which you seem to be.

Sometimes I even wonder if I am a part of the generalized "therian community," anymore, simply because I disagree with the ways in which a lot of them are run, and the ways in which people who don't always go with the "norm" are treated. A lot of people seem to think that being rude and insulting to those who do not follow their standardized beliefs proves that they are a "real therian." It doesn't. Anyways, off on a tangent.

I'm sorry people have been so rude in the past, but I certainly won't be like that here, or anywhere else, for that matter. I also have certain things that I don't go blabbing to the general therian public.

[talaunega]

sorry for the late reply, had a big move and such. thanks alot red feather. im glad there are other like minded people here that dont believe you have to be rude to get your thoughts across

[Sherlawk Dragon]

Welcome back! But you're a little late...
Everything's moved to TherianForest now, because Thylae's gone, and this place has no administration.
Please go there instead.